Fever

After exam on Tuesday, and feeling a whole damn lot of stress and relief at the same time. Relief that exam over, will definitely pass all, but i wonder if i can get two As and one B.. My guess is ABC, but it's ok since it's over. Next term die die must have 3 As and 1B then. Good thing i checked my module and 3 are "mathematical" modules. :) Yeah! But to hit target in Bernard's NECTAR course, next term needs to get all As. I can do it! Just need to put in extra hard work for non-math module! YEAH!

Tuesday's night didn't get much rest even though exams were over. Preparing for next day's appointment as i was still nervous before appointment. Needed to dig out my acting skills from performance's training in the past and acted and felt in myself that i knew what i was doing (in fact no confident at all when explaining the investment part!!). Hee, but think i pulled it off ok :)

Thursday went canvassing at Raffles Place.. nothing new, did my usual stuffs, but less stunts. Only did one stunt that day..
Haha, that was just for FUN cos it was getting boring..
Ok what i had done was that, from very far away, spotted a young guy (around my age, or slightly older) and kept my eyes locked on him. That day i was wearing a short black dress, high heels (really high, cos my feet cramped during canvassing), hair was down.. Then i sashayed toward him.. (still carrying my survey file) He saw me when i was half-way towards him. When i caught his eyes, i smiled at him, still continue sashaying. :) He looked at me for 5 seconds then blushed. He actually BLUSHED! When i reached him within arm-length, i said "Hi". (of course i say hi la... what else hor? hee hee hee). He looked up and i saw his face was still apple red! "Can i take 1 min of your time and do a short survey with you?" The guy just continued blushing and smiling and kept waving no... Then he looked down and didn't look up anymore... Well, i said "no worries, have a nice day!" and walked away.. Though quite "boi liao", but it perked me up, made me giggle, and was uplifted... and i continued my canvassing with much more energy...

Yup, i know some of you will be concerned about me, to be wary of guys.. especially wary of the horny bus3rds. Don't worry as it was still broad daylight and i was careful.. no numbers given to him.. and i disappeared into the crowds...
anyway was also thinking of getting a pepper spray.. anyone has better idea for "fang lang"?

hee.. thoughts are all over the place now.. and now suddenly remembered the days when i was on stage, performing.. be it dance, or drama dance.. or acting.. i really enjoyed it.. also enjoyed the days when i was with my basketball team in secondary school, fighting to get the girls' team recognised, getting ourselves into the B' division match, find our own coach, and we went through my crazy training without complains.. no complains as we worked towarded the same goals.. my training was crazy, cos i knew that our team was young, all the more we needed to get our foundation strong.. we were all fit and lean.. and muscular too.. haha.. i appreciated my teammates.. my good teammates who so faithfully stood by me, respected me, even though i was harsh, cos the message was clear to ALL people, and we were working towards the SAME GOAL.. When i meant message was clear to ALL people, i meant the WHOLE SCHOOL knew about our goal.. haha so shiok i tell you.. cos i pulled a stunt too (imagine at that age.. pulled a stunt!)

What i did was during a song dedication during valentines' day, i wrote in to say that i had a dedication. So that day, i was called on stage to do my song dedication, which i thanked my teammates for standing by me, despite all the tough training (then i decribed the training abit), thanked the school for giving us an opportunity (actually they haven't approve for us to go competition YET), thanked the teacher-in-charge to volunteer and take time out to be our teacher-in-charge (school's rule that a CCA needs a teacher to be in-charge), and thanked the operation manager who makes us stronger (cos he tried to bring us down by finding fault with my best friend for flirting with guys outside school, and accussed her of indecent behaviour and threatened to suspend her. I stomped into his office -his office just beside principal's office- and defended my friend and brought her out of office. Then i personally explained the situation to the principal too.) Guess what? The following week i received news from principal that our B'division competition had been approved :) Sweet victory for us! Yeah! And as for the operation manager, i made sure he didn't get close to my teammates AT ALL.. and i also talked to some others with position and power to talk to him.. He then didn't dare to disturb us anymore...

Good thing about being a lady.. is that, tears work... but be mindful that use it to your advantage, that help you to reach your goal, reach the team's goal.. use it, wisely.. not to use it to get empathy, not to use it in self-condemnation.. use it, the right way..
Of course when i was sad, i also cried.. crying to me, is to cry the sadness and stress away.. the tireness and stress and unhappiness will go away with the teardrops.. As the teardrops fell to the ground, and disappeared into the mud, so did the tireness/stress/unhappiness.

Hee.. I very lor-so today.. very long entry... cos the talking about basketball, and linking to the STEP-UP entries that you all put up, reminded me of my JC basketball days..

During my year 2, the team was fighting to be the top. Lost to HCJC in year 1, soOooOoo buay shong. Our mental power was very stong, our attitude was right, the whole team was united.. What did we do apart from the already 3days- a- week training with coach, which 2days comprised of stamina/strength training too.. The WHOLE TEAM, mind you, is THE WHOLE TEAM, AGREED to come to school at 5.30am EVERY MORNING (until the start of season), to do shooting. One hour of shooting, half an hour to freshen up before attending classes. In JC, everyone live all over Singapore (not like secondary school where we will chose the school near our homes), and most of us had to get up like 4.30am and shared cab down to school. Reaching school, we climbed over the gate to get in.. haha.. that was FUN! cos our minds were all so focus, tireness were not in our directionary....

Those were the days.. Reminded me how strong a person can be, when the mental is right. I can be who i am. I can be who i want to be. Be focus, be strong. I can.